I’ve haven’t been spending much time at my computer,
I’ve been either knitting furiously on the my couch till the wee hours of the morning or at the gym and lifting club.

And it was been a bag of mixed results from the gym.

Last week, a low point – had a work out that left me for the first time not only gasping for breath on the floor but crying. I felt so defeated from it I just lost it. Usually I’m to stubborn t o start to cry or give up. I may slow down, but not stop. Part of it may be a case of sports induced asthma, which I can’t rule out for sure until I have health care and can afford a doctor visit. Not being able to breath is a tough thing to just work through.

High point last week, I have been doing a training routine at the gym called Smolov Jr for about 4 weeks. That’s meant to increase your push press and back squat numbers. So last week we retested and I got 2 new PR’s! My push press increased 15 lb. to 125 and my back squat went up 20 lb. to 205. I didn’t fail any of my attempts either, so given more time I may be able to improve those yet. My fiancee hit his lifetime goal for his back squat too, 405 pounds!
We were both flying high that day. The next we were pretty sore.

Then high point again on last Sunday, at lifting club, I made my goal for my dead lift, I lifted 205.

And  yesterday major low point again, I woke up with a sore neck/shoulder on my left side. I went to the gym any way thinking I would work it out.
Nope.
I completed 6 push-ups and the pain doubled, I could barely move my neck, my arm started going numb. So I left early, by the time I’d gotten home it was worse. It hurts so much, I can barely knit.

I hate just lying around, I like to be doing something always, and injuries like this or when I’m really sick make me unable to do anything else. You just lay there suffering. Maybe watching some horrible TV show or something.
Maybe the universe is trying to tell me to take it easy more, that I need to find peace in just sitting there.

Or maybe it’s a challenge from the universe to see if I’ll ever finish all our x-mas gifts.